HELLO, WORLD.

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hi, me talk time again; though this time it's a bit more retrospective and a lot more personal than anything i've spoken about before.

if you've read my theidea page, then you may or may not be interested in a little tidbit i let out there, "14 year old's attempt to create lore". Wuz Dat ?

today i will tell bits of this long story (through this temporary medium, of course) in service of my younger self, who oh so obsessed over this little world of his, that eventually came to be abandonded.

most of this has never left my cranium, and even if it has, it was at most ever seen by one other person; so this is a first.

WARNING: LOOOOOOOONG

BIT O' BACKGROUND

okay so, this actually begins somewhere around me being 11: i used to really want to be a pixel artist specifically (i'm sure it shows), so one day i was screwing around in this program called piskel, and made this.

quality and edginess (oh that bullet in the wing...) aside, i think i was proud of it at the time?

fast forward 3 years to may of 2020, i was trying to make an online avatar for myself and was looking for inspiration in some older pixel art of mine. i come across that thing, share it with a friend (Cuz its bad and thats funny), and go back to doing my thing.

then that moron decides to share it in a discord server we were both active in.

needless to say, hilarity ensued, and inbetween all this hilarity i agreed to draw that thing again and then set it as my profile picture.

and that's how k... kacpe... kacper the de... that hting began.

so yea, meet him, i suppose.

kacper's the name and he's a half-goopy demon guy.

this world he inhabits has the central idea of hell being the place where everyone ends up after they die. of course, hell here is on the more cartoonish and light-hearted side, rather than the biblical realm of suffering and damnation (though it's still supposed to be evil).

initially i wanted a main cast of characters based off the 7 deadly sins, and this guy would be pride. he was two-dimensionally asshol-ish! though, that idea didn't last very long, so afterwards he was only subconsciously self-centered. his character arc PROBABLY would've had to do with resolving that? idk, that part's faded.

you may have noticed that this guy doesn't look like MY guy, and that's cuz i KINDA lied. see, MY guy was kacper before he died. which, y'know, isn't really all that relevant when he's already supposed to be dead at the beginning of the story, so...

anyways, his story went like this: he died by being struck by lightning during a solar eclipse (which is somehow significant) and went to hell, when he gets there he lacks his frontal lobe and is in insane pain (even though it's his soul???), but satan saw potential in him (for some reason) and agreed to end his pain in return for loyalty or something.

in this little write-up i made years ago, i actually wrote down "The now practically brain-dead Kacper somehow agrees". you can't make this up.

so, he puts that weird mask thing onto him and "channels a wave of demonic energy" (that's why he has the red eyes) which possesses him, and so he starts off with no memory of anything.

he gets enlisted in the hell army (which satan doesn't even need, still think it's a funny idea), meets a bunch of equally flawed friends, do an invasion of earth (yes, the very same earth we're on and that KACPER originated from. more on that later) during which kacper gets UNPOSSESSED (somehow), gets his memories back and wants to OVERTHROW SATAN, and then his friends SOMEHOW agree that they want to do that too.

uhm, i think you can tell i didn't really think a lot of this stuff through. one of the reasons i ended up abandoning this whole thing in the first place is because of how many holes there are in it, and i was really stubborn when it came to changing it. you can imagine all the different outlandish explanations for this stuff that i tried to justify it with inside my head. like an idea i had for the earth thing is that nuclear war happened, millions of years passed and through some weird nuclear fusion thing, old human dna fused with something else and now everybody on earth is a weird sentient creature of whatever shape and size. cuz it's GOOOOOTTA be EAAAAARTH.

now, true, i probably could've ignored a lot of this stuff and it wouldn't have made a difference; but there's a reason this is a story i never told anyone about and not a shitty story i made and released when i was younger: i REALLY wanted this to be my "masterpiece" (i never did creative writing before this btw lol). and through this flawed mentality not only did the story never progress that much (despite how much time i spent on it, i barely ever thought about the moment-to-moment, like character interaction, just background stuff that didn't... err... matter), but TRYING to progress it was really frustrating!

i never really liked how kacper looked either. even though i tried to clean up the design (as you probably saw), it's still based on a shitty drawing done by an 11 year old, and trying to polish that up was WAY above my skill-paygrade.

i will say, i do like some of the later ideas i came up with for this world. like, "satan" was just a title for the ruler of hell, and satans have been overthrown before, and often when they WERE, they built a new hell on top of the old one; like, quite literally just dug up and started anew. they had a reason for this too, as the mad spirits of the original, first hell would keep trying to pierce into the new hell, and in the moment of weakness (a satan being overthrown), they likely would.

and this would create a giant layered RING-LIKE abyss below "hell" which would be more like the biblical land of damnation (with some lone, sane holdouts)... kinda like the. Like the. Liek the Circles of Hell. Huh ? ?

i think it's a cool idea.

so yea, that's the little world that completely hijacked any and all creative activity of mine for a good one or two years, and the failure of which caused a slump for me in that department until like 2 months ago. honestly, i thought i'd never ever share any of this, but i think it's cool that i've let a bit of it out there now; it's like
i just got rid of this rotting corpse occupying the room with all the beds inside my head.

i think it goes without saying that i'm never going to touch it again. even if i was a bit interested, this fascination with hell and demons i used to have has since faded away. now i'm mainly thinkin' bout miserable robots/cyborgs and clunky gray machinery! i've actually had some cool ideas for stories featuring these latter themes recently, maybe i'll be able to tell them some day if i have a medium for it;
i still have no idea what i'm doing, but at least i have an idea of what i'm not doing.

there's a LOOOOT more to this (there's more than just one character, trust me); but for now, i've no more reason to mull over the past.

thanks for reading.